[Mkguild] Jacks story part 1

[christian okane]

I am reposting this for Jack to see who gets it.

 

 

Chris

The Lurking Fox

 

 

 

AN: I just made a big announcement today and am beginning a big change. So
to say I'm afraid is an understatement. I desperately need a criticism on
this story and people to help me. I don't know I've ever been so afraid.

 

Trust





To My Friend in the North 





Yes I know the last letter didn't make me sound good but it wasn't supposed
to. It's something I suspect Eli and I will discuss when I meet Him. The
crushing of the Host is something I still regret, but there is no way for me
to undo it. It was how I acted and I can't undo it.





And it is a sign of Eli's eternal mercy that the first time I steped in to
the Keep chapel that Yahshua didn't come off the cross and beat me. I
deserved it. And Nemo had every right to be mad at me.





Patric especially, though. I wanted to apologize to him almost right away
but it was two weeks before I saw him again. In that time I managed to annoy
two people. The first was Sir Egland, the second...a very well known
vulpine.





I want to discuss neither of these incidents but I have to. I might as well
start with the first, the time I met Sir Egland. He talked to me, challenged
me and then I vomited on him.





Admit it that interests you. I'll explain as it goes on. 





May Eli bless this venture as I continue.

 

*

 

March 28th, 707





The sun slipped into my room from a small window above my bed. I couldn't
remember if the window had been there yesterday, but it was now. It gave me
some badly needed light but it also brought in the cold air.





My tail ached badly even though I was no longer sitting on it. The tip
dragged the ground, so I had to either walk with it up or endure. 





What do I do with this damn thing? I sat on the edge of my bed with my tail
pulled onto my lap. If I don't drag it, it sticks up. At least when I wear
the sarong I don't have to see it.





"What do you think?" I asked the figure sharing my bed. "Do you like your
tail?" The little rat from before looked up and squeaked. It went back to
nibbling on the small piece of wood that I gave him. "About what I figured."





"Nemo wants me to find a job. He says we'll need employment; I don't need
that I've got a job. I'm the son of a Lord; I'm gong to be a Lord." It's
amazing how hard you can hold on to things you know aren't true.





"What do I even do?" I began to wrap fabric around my feet. "I'm good at
being the son of a Lord, it takes a lot of training to do that! I don't want
to do anything else!" Now came the leather straps, wrapped around the fabric
to hold it in place.





"I don't like this place." I tied the straps together. "These
people...they're insane. Who wants to be an animal monster thing? I
just...How can they go on like this?" My memories returned to Patric,
carrying his Eucharistic Dove. Despite being a green monster, he went on
like this was normal. "How can they be happy like this? Their lives are
over..."





Patric's life went on. Nemo is being cursed and his life is going on. It's
only you, no one else. I tried to push the voice out. Instead it screamed
back. You can't just hide inside this room!





"Yeah wait and see." I tied my other foot up. "Perfect!" My feet were
wrapped in linens, held in place by crisscrossing leather straps. They had
grown to twice their previous length. Tying them up caused my new claws to
rub against my toes.





"What do you think?" I asked my rodent friend. He took one look and curled
into a ball. I rolled my eyes. "Be completely honest, don't hold anything
back." I wrapped my skirt around me, trying still to hide my tail. This
despite its increased length. I might as well have been trying to hide it
with air.





"There." I secured my skirt and pulled on my falconry glove. My other hand
had no glove but did have new claws. This I hid with a new shirt, one
featuring two extremely long sleeves. It was an ugly shade of mud-red but it
hid my body.

"Alright and...these" I sighed, "These ugly things." I felt along my neck at
seven spines hiding just under the skin. One came out under my chin and the
other six spread out from them. "Why do I have these? What fucking reptile
has these?"





A crystal figure with a big neck holding a stick. You found yourself. I
shook my head. "I haven't found shit. I...I need to get home. I need out of
this room." Their was no decoration in my room, or much of anything. Nemo
had acquired a sewing kit for me, that lay under my bed. Otherwise it was an
empty tomb.





"This still doesn't feel real..." I had purchased a scarf yesterday, during
a very brief excursion to the Market Square.  I felt calmer wrapping this
aba around my neck since it hid the spines. Now only my head was uncovered. 





"My hairline is receding." I felt along the top of my skull. Yep, it was
vanishing and fast. My eyebrows had already disappeared. This curse had
taken my home, my way of life, my title and now my hair. 





Truly its evil knew no bounds.





"I don't want to go out there today." I fell onto my bed and leapt up again,
"Yow!" Forgot about the tail. This time I pulled it onto my lap before
sitting down. My rat friend hopped up and sniffed at me quickly. "I scared
you with the screech didn't I?"





"Squeee!"





"Sorry, sorry. Still getting used to...all of this." I flexed my feet and
the claws on my toes tore t the linen wrap. "Damn it. Why do I have to be
here?" Because they'll murder you and hang your body if you leave the Keep
and go back home.





"Know what I want to do?" The rat cocked his little head. "I'd like to go
hawking today." I grinned. "There's nothing quite like a day spent with your
hawk. My current one is Ulysses.





"He's this...red-tailed hawk I've had for almost two years. He uh...he's
great. Just watching him fly" I shook my head, "I could do it all day. I
swear."





Hawking is the greatest of all the pastimes. Hunting with arrows is a
bloody, violent past time I despise. I've never liked killing, but when
hawking at least the hawk can get a meal out of this.





When you're hawking you are free. In the field, the wind blowing through
your hair and the hawk screeching as it circles above you, you are at peace.
You can forget your father's obsessive grooming you to take over for him,
your place in an Empire you don't know.





"I don't think Duke what's his name even knows how to go hawking." I said.
"Who is running this place?" I scratched my head. "Nemo said he was a
horse...nope don't remember.





"How can Duke Clip-Clop be a ruler and not enjoy hawking? It's insane." Not
as insane as was calling him Duke Clip-Clop to his face. 

 

Which I did. 

 

But not for a few months.

 

"I need out of this room." I stretched and stood. "I need a whore very
badly. I need a whore, where is the brothel?" I yawned. "God almighty. Think
think, think...oh I know where it is!"

 

Yesterday I had heard someone discussing a business somewhere in Euper. From
the name, I knew it had to be a brothel. "It's called the Jolly Collie inn!
How can it not be a brothel?"

 

In my defense, that does sound like the name of a brothel.

 

"I'll find the brothel and then I'll...maybe I'll fuck a dog girl." I
shrugged. "Never done that before. What do you think?" My rat sniffed
curiously. I smiled and stroked his fur.

 

"I'll bring you like a nut or something to eat. Promise." I left him there
to gnaw things while I searched for the brothel.

 

The center room of my new home was empty. The fire was put out and the ashes
were piling up. Beside the fireplace two glaives rested: Qual and mine. Mine
was a dull iron blade mounted on a shaft of oak.

 

Qual was magnificent. A two-pronged silver blade, reminding me of the face
of the moon. The shaft was unlined, unblemished and utterly perfect. When
you looked at it, no matter how long you did, you couldn't see how the blade
and shaft connected. Obviously they did but your eyes...just kind of slid
off.





I touched the shaft. It was warm, almost pulsating beneath my touch. I
looked then at my glaive next to it. The shaft was splintering, the blade
was wedged on and the blade itself was dented and dusty. I lifted it up.

 

"At least I can use this." I swung my weapon, letting it move across my
fingers. The blade of my glaive was sharp and the weapon was balanced for
me. I sat it back down and put one hand on Qual.

 

"A runic weapon...what I wouldn't give..." I closed my eyes and imagined
that Qual was mine. Perfect weight, perfect fit and able to spin without
hitting myself. "Gods in heaven yes..."

 

I'd stand before all of the Keep, above them all holding Qual over my head.
The invading armies would come 

and I'd fight them off. Because I was just that good! In my own fantasies!

It's my fantasy; I'm allowed to be a god among men if I want.

 

"Then after I fight off the army...what of? Luten? Good as anything else, I
can go back to Isenport." I sunk against the wall. "Then they'll name me
Emperor and the best dressed human ever. And not a lizard." I sighed.

 

"I need to train more. Where can I train...not in this place." The city as
it was cramped and full of people, I couldn't go around swinging a blade.
"I'll have to leave the walled Keep..." My heart froze in my chest. "Can't
do that..."

 

The Keep was a cage and I a falcon. It confined me but at the same time it
protected me. An elyas couldn't be allowed to fly free, they'd die. They
also couldn't be contained, they'd go insane.

 

"Going outside to train won't kill me." I mumbled. "I can be with Nemo, in
eyesight of the Keep." Now I had to laugh. "I've been miserable here, now
the thought of leaving scares me. I still don't want to be here..." I
moaned.

 

"I wanna go home! I don't want to be in this place. I want my bed again." My
head dropped. "I don't know anyone here. I don't belong here, what was
Father doing here? Why did this happen to me?" Again I had sat down on my
tail but I was so drained that the pain didn't bother me.

 

"How can I get home?" I glanced around the living room. "I can't live here.
This place is a crypt. I need to get back to Isenport."

 

What would make this place more comfortable? I laughed.

 

"If it was in Isenport." I shook my head. "I'm never going back am I? It's
done; I'm stuck in this place. I'm going to die in a city in an enemy
kingdom and I'll never see my home again." Something began to bubble up
inside of me. But it wasn't depression.

 

It was rage.

 

"I'm never going to get to see home because of that son of a bitch I call my
Father who always needs to pull something underhanded." I shook my head.
"I'm going to die here while he'll just raise my brother in my place." The
anger I had felt when dealing with Patric was back, now it was coming out
though.

 

"Why was that bastard even here? We're meeting with someone? Who do you even
know?" I grit my teeth. "I'm going to see the whores, then I'll feel better.
I can...I can pay them..." I sighed, "I can pay them to talk to me. I can
pay them to not to think I'm a monster."

 

I pushed myself back up again as Nemo's door popped open. I forced a queasy
smile onto my face. "Just woke up, surprised I beat you."

 

"I was quite exhausted." Nemo said with a yawn. "How are you this fine
morning James? Your feet have changed."

 

"They have not!" He gestured at my linen wraps covering my changed feet.
"Well...the floor hurts when it's cold now so I needed something to keep
them warm. What would you expect me to do?" Nemo tapped his chin.

 

"Well you're becoming a lizard-

 

"I am not!" 

 

-And as a lizard you will not be able to handle cold temperatures. So this"
He gestured at the floor, "needs to change. I'd recommend we go find
something, carpeting, thrushes, sand or something else." 

 

"What on Earth are thrushes?" Nemo sat down at our table and rubbed his
eyes. His black hair was slightly pressed down but it actually looked a bit
shinier. Not only that but the gray at his temples looked less gray. I sat
down beside him, careful to mind my tail. "Something wrong?"

 

"Actually no. I'm tired but not bad tired. I just feel peculiar." He held up
his hands. "My skin is less rugose. I wonder, perhaps a result of this
beneficent place?" I rolled my eyes.

 

"Can't you just say stuff without me wondering what you're talking about?"
Nemo shrugged.

 

"I understand my vocabulary. You would also if you read some. James you were
going to be the ruler of a city, you should have read more. You can rectify
that."

 

"I wasn't going to be anything," I snapped, "I'll be the ruler of Isenport.
Now shut up." Nemo sighed and yawned again. "So what's for breakfast."

 

"Right now? Not a thing." 

 

"What?"

 

"Nothing. I need to purchase more food for us." Nemo shook his head, trying
to wake up. "In fact I'd recommend you explore this Keep, find places we
could eat if needed."

 

"Can't do that." I said. "Busy today, you gotta do that." Nemo raised an
eyebrow. "I need money actually, not much. Going to see the whores." I
grinned. My caretaker did not.

 

"James, we have a limited and increasingly shrinking monetary supply. You
should not be wasting it on prostitutes." My stomach grumbled in agreement.
"This is a city, there is a market somewhere. Go find it."





"I know where the Market Square is." I grumbled. "I'm not a complete idiot."






"I never thought you were." Nemo said. "James, I think you can make this
situation work-





"I don't want to make it work!" I yelled. Nemo closed his eyes. "I've tried
making it work and I'm sick of it! I want a whore; I'm going to find a
whore!"





"I think you can make this work. But you have to address your priorities.
James, we no longer have limitless money." My stomach dropped. "You'll have
to change your lifestyle. You have to budget now."





"I don't want to budget." I wiped my eyes, trying to keep them dry. "I
don't...it's not fair. I'm stuck in a city on the opposite side of the
continent, might as well be the opposite side of the fucking world!" Nemo
opened his eyes. 

 

"And it just...it sucks! I can't fix it! I don't want to fucking be here! I
want to burn this place, this Keep and my fucking tail!"





"I didn't know you had grown a tail." I cocked my head.





"Excuse me?" Nemo smiled.





"I'd like to see you wear fewer rags. I bet your tail looks magnificent on
you." It does look fantastic on me now. Then though it was a fleshy nuisance
wrapped in scales, a reminder of my beastly fate.





"I thought I told you about this..." Nemo shook his head. "Well I did, I've
got a fucking tail and no you can't see it. You wanna see, grow one of your
own." Nemo sighed.





"I would be so lucky. I suspect I am not though James." He untied our money
bag, at his waste as always, and pulled out a few shiny coins. Silver I
believe maybe a few coppers. "James you need to learn to prioritize and I
need to know I can trust you. I want to give you this money but I know what
you will use it for."





"Yeah to go see the whores." Nemo just shook his head and pulled out another
two coins.

"I know you will, no matter what I do. So let me ask you this, if I give you
money to pay for a whore will you purchase food for us?"





"Why can't you do it Nemo?" I whined.





"Because you need to learn how to do things yourself James." Kind of obvious
in hindsight. "I won't be here forever; you have to know how to do simple
things like buy your own food or to visit the market." I fell silent at
this, his reasoning was sound. Even to an obstreperous elyas such as myself.





"I can do that..." I mumbled. "I'll get food...stuff I want. Your taste
sucks." Ah there's the imbecile I was in my youth, grateful as always for
Nemo's help. "I've got a more refined pallet, I'll find something good."





"You'll have to readjust your pallet while living here James." Nemo said
with a sigh. He pushed the coins across the table. "I'm trusting you. Don't
disappoint me."





"Thank you!" I snatched the coins up. "I wont disappoint you, I'll get us
fresh cutlets, sweetmeat, veal" Now I was drooling, "Everything we had at
the manor. You can cook it right? Doesn't matter, the kitchen staff taught
me how to cook, I'll make something great." Nemo just shook his head.
"What?"





"I admire your bravado. One thing I'm going to purchase today is a pot. We
might need one."





"Yeah yeah." I stood up. "Look thanks for the money, I won't disappoint you.
Promise."

 

And I did intend to keep that promise. I really did. Just...things happened.

 

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