[Mkguild] Introductions Cycle: Seeking Absolution (1 of 2)

[Ryx]

I was rather surprised to find that this had not made the list... it's quite 
old.

It falls between my submissions "Meeting Metamor Keep" and "Triumphant Return 
the Dogs of War".
As the 90k limit is kicking me in the teeth I'll try to cut each part down a bit 
smaller, and hope it works.

Ryx.
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Metamor Keep
Introductions Cycle
 
Seeking Absolution
 
            Llyn had never gotten along with Caroline, that much was truth.  It 
was a well known fact among the Longs, and many others, who ever saw the two 
face off.  Misha had been the cause of their disagreements, when he passed up 
Llyn for Caroline, lighting a fire of jealousy under the mink's tail so hot it 
had almost caused her to do something rash.  Ever since that day almost three 
years ago there had been a simmering tension between the two that had been 
nearly impossible to banish.
            Llyn, for her part, had dropped the jealousy once she realized how 
dangerous it was, to her and to those she worked with.  She had never entirely 
forgiven the otter's intrusion, but could understand how Misha had chosen her 
over Llyn.  At the time Llyn had a few problems of her own that affected her 
friendship with Misha, and many others.
            She had never revealed the cause of her problems, because it was her 
own personal curse.  She had never even confessed the taint upon her soul to any 
of the various priests she had seen over the years, when they condescended to 
visit Metamor.  The only priest to ever do so with any frequency had been father 
Hough.  Mrs. Levins had said that the curse had made a child of him.
            So much had happened in the past five weeks she felt like a stranger 
in her own home.  An insurrection had been crushed, yet another friend had been 
lost to the enemy.  Caroline's humiliation, Hough's succumbing to the curse.  
Charles Mattias becoming a warrior, accompanying Misha and the rest of the Longs 
on an assault against Stepping Stone.
            She shook her head quietly as she stalked, wraithlike, through the 
halls of Metamor.  She had risen achingly early that morning, unable to catch 
more than a few hours of sleep, her dreams full of turmoil.  Old memories were 
bubbling to the surface like a muddy taint from the bottom of a cistern, and she 
found that none were less traumatic for the intervening years.
            The infirmary was quiet when she arrived, the main hall empty, lit 
by a single lantern on Brian Coe's desk.  The racks and shelves of the room were 
crowded with the implements of the healers' art, giving the place a sepulchral 
stench.  She stood there in the archway for several minutes, a cold dread in the 
pit of her stomach, until movement in the corner of her eye caught her 
attention.  The raccoon healer was backing quietly from a room to the right side 
of the hall, a tray in his hands.  Llyn moved across to him as he pulled the 
door of the room shut quietly, purposely letting her claws click upon the stone 
floor so that her sudden appearance would not startle the healer.
            "Where is Caroline?" She asked as the healer turned, his black 
masked face cast in soft shadows by the light of the lamp.  One dark eye gleamed 
from the black circle of his mask where the light touched it, the other lost in 
shadow as he looked at the mink.  He nodded his head toward the room from which 
he had just come.
            "In there." He offered, "But I don't think you want to go in there."
            "I'm a friend, Coe, I'd like to see her.  Is she awake?"
            The raccoon nodded, his ringed tail curling around one of his legs, 
"For now, I just gave her something for the pain, so she'll sleep soon." He 
turned, carrying the tray over to a nearby table, "This is the first night she 
seems to be getting by without nightmares, so don't keep her awake overly 
long."  He turned and looked down at Llyn's hip, "You can't take that in there." 
He pointed at the sword the mink wore.  Llyn looked down at it as well, 
surprised to find she was wearing it at all.  She reluctantly unbuckled her 
sword belt and laid it on the table next to the tray.  The raccoon looked at it 
with some disquiet, shaking his head slowly at the necessity to wear weapons 
almost everywhere these days.  "She's very weak right now, please try not to 
stress her."
            Llyn nodded, and pushed upon the door.  It opened with a quiet hiss 
as the cloth seal brushed across the floor, revealing the interior of small, 
utilitarian stone room lit by a single candle.  The otter occupied the room's 
single bed, a brightly colored quilt drawn up under her chin.  Her head was 
propped up on a pair of thick goose-down pillows, her fur recently cleaned and 
groomed so that it cast a muted shine from the candle’s light.  Her head turned 
toward Llyn as the mink entered, pushing the door closed behind her.
            Llyn grimaced at the sight of the once proud, playful otter's 
damaged face as the light sketched it in soft relief.  One eye was swollen shut, 
her jaw puffy with bruises.  Cuts had been cleaned and bandaged along her jaw 
line, her whiskers almost entirely singed away by some torturous act.  The hand 
draped across her body was swathed thickly in fresh bandages, hiding the damage 
to her fingers from Llyn's sight.
            "Who is it?" the otter asked, her good eye glimmering as she peered 
toward the darker side of the room, unable to identify the mink immediately.  
She raised one thickly bandaged hand from her side toward the newcomer, waving 
it stiffly for her to approach.
            "It's Joy, Carol." The mink said quietly, stepping into the light.  
The otter's face twisted slightly at the name, a sigh escaping her.  Llyn almost 
tuned and left right at that moment, feeling the old dislike bubbling to the 
surface, throwing up a wall between them.  Frowning, she stopped in her tracks, 
clasping her hands before her belly.
            "You're alive, at least." The otter rumbled, her voice hissing 
laboriously through her raw throat.
            "I heard about Craig." Llyn said quietly, not moving, her heart 
shriveling at the old venom in the otter's ragged voice.  "I'm sorry, he was a 
good friend."
            Caroline merely nodded, looking over toward the candle, "Why are you 
here?"
            Llyn sighed, moving over to the bed, close enough to touch, but not 
reaching out.  "I don't want us to hate each other any more, Carol."  The 
otter's gaze returned to her, the hardness in her stare boring a hole into the 
mink.  "It happened to me too."
            "What did?  Hate?" the otter hissed, her face twisting as she glared 
up at Llyn, who could only shake her head.
            "Four years ago.  Have you ever heard of 'Moe'?"
            "Side Show, yes." The otter nodded, confusion replacing the look of 
distaste on her muzzle.  "He's been trying to capture Keepers for years."
            "He has, at least twice." Llyn nodded, "I was one of them."  
Caroline's jaw merely opened slightly, her eye registering surprise.  "Two weeks 
of his… I can't say it, even now." Llyn sighed, lowering her head as the 
memories came flooding back, the floodgates opened.  They were dark memories, of 
humiliation and emotional anguish.  He had never physically harmed her, beyond 
what his restraining her required, but that had not been his intent.
            He had meant to break her spirit, and very nearly had.  That he did 
not shatter her will was only a minor consideration, he had damaged a great many 
other things about her that took a great deal of time to come to terms with.  
Some of them had yet to heal.
            "So?" Caroline hissed, the glare returning even angrier, "Did he do 
this?" she held up her shattered hand, waving it at the mink.  Llyn quailed, 
falling back a step.
            "No." she said in a small voice, "Carol, that's not the point, what 
he did… I cannot undo, and I am not asking for your forgiveness for his evil."
            "Then why are you here, to torment me?" the otter whined, her voice 
cracking.  Llyn could see the glimmering streak of a tear tracing its way across 
the otter's swollen cheek.  That streak was not alone, mirrored by the twin 
trails at either side of the mink's own muzzle.
            "No, because I know." She waved one hand impotently, the other 
wiping her tears away.  Trying to, at least.  All she did was smear them into 
her fur.  "Some of your pain." He touched her hand to her heart, "Inside."  The 
otter merely stared at her, futilely trying to wipe her tears away with her 
bandaged hand, wincing as she touched her damaged cheek.  "And I don't want us 
to have this… hate, between us anymore."
            "Now you say?" Caroline growled, turning away, "I don't need your 
sympathy, Joy."
            "But what of my friendship?" Llyn choked, her voice faltering.
"What of it?" the otter hissed toward the candle flame, "You're offering it only 
now?"
            "I could not offer it before, I was too… angry." Llyn sank into the 
chair next to the head of the bed, "Too prideful."
            "Too jealous." The otter's voice echoed from the wall, difficult for 
Llyn to understand with her damaged hearing.  She nodded.
            "That too, but that I banished long ago.  Misha is my commander now, 
a friend, but nothing more." She looked up at the back of the otter's head, 
"He's been that for a long time now."
            "Not good enough for you?"
            Llyn chuffed, sighing, "Plenty good enough, but yours.  I may have 
pride, Carol, but I'm neither blind nor dumb.  His heart is given to you."  It 
still hurt, just a little bit, but that pain was mollified by the fox's 
happiness.
            Though she could sympathize with the fox's pain now, with his mate 
so grievously damaged, physically and emotionally.  The razing of Stepping would 
do nothing to assuage that anger, Llyn knew, merely give him an outlet to vent 
his grief.  She looked up after several moments of silence, and discovered that 
the otter had fallen asleep.
            Shaking her head sadly, she stood and walked out, quietly pulling 
the door closed behind her.  Recovering her sword without thought, she stalked 
from the infirmary, ignoring the raccoon as he looked up from his desk 
curiously.
 
            Continuing her aimless wanderings, her mind churning over the past 
and the present in a confusing amalgam of the both that left her mind spinning 
dizzily.  Her footsteps led her aimlessly through the Keep, the passage of time 
forgotten for the moment as her mind boiled with turmoil.  She was cognizant of 
little more than her own two feet as they entered and left her field of view 
upon the floor below them.
            Some feeling, a strange twinge that raced through her body shook her 
out of her ruminations some time later, bringing her steps to a halt as she 
looked up.  What looked back at her was nothing less than breathtaking; a 
vaulting stained glass window that that glimmered in the first pale rays of the 
dawning sun.  Towering behind the altar before that great wall of chromatic 
glass was a massive crucifix of pale white stone.  Massive columns and 
colonnades of stone towered high over her, all focused down upon the massive 
altar at the head of the aisle in which she found herself.
            She started as she noticed the pews to either side of the long 
aisle, and the single small human working at the altar.  He was wearing the 
simple ceremonial smock of a priest, though appeared to be little more than a 
child.  That in itself was not unusual for Metamor, thought the fact that she 
was standing in the middle of a chapel was to her.  She had been told that the 
nearest priest of her order had come to live in Metamor during the absence of 
her last patrol.  She had never been told the reasons why one was there now, but 
the fact that the Ecclasia had finally decided to bring a priest to Metamor full 
time had come as something of a relief to her.
            Father Hough's sacrifice in accepting the change amazed her.  She 
started to take another step toward the dais, but something caused her to pause, 
a twinge of guilt that stayed her steps.  Furrowing her eyebrows she tried to 
understand what would make her not want to get any further into the chapel than 
she already was.  Unable to locate any particular cause, she shook off the 
uneasy feeling and turned around.  Striding to the vestibule, she unbuckled her 
sword belt and placed the sword upon one of the racks to either side of the 
great doors.
            It took her a moment to actually release the simple leather scabbard 
and steel, but she finally managed to force herself to.  The past two months of 
running about in the wilderness of the north had made the deadly steel a part of 
her and she found herself loath to part with it.  Even if to enter a church of 
her own faith, where the last thing she needed to fear was eminent attack.
            Securing the weapon, she returned, striding slowly down the aisle as 
she admired the intricate construction of the building, until she found herself 
standing a few feet short of the dais upon which the altar rested.  The young 
man rubbing the polished marble looked up at her curiously, pausing in his work.
            "Excuse me?" She asked, ducking a bit as he voice carried into every 
corner of the large stone chapel, which caused the boy to smile brightly.
            "A most wonderful place, is it not?" he asked, his voice smooth with 
the wisdom of age yet bright with the gaiety of youth.
            "Yes." She had to agree, "Yes it is.  Could I speak with Father 
Hough?"
            The child laughed yet again, his cherubic face pulled into a gleeful 
smile, "That would be me, my daughter." He intoned with all the solemnity his 
childish tenor could muster.  "And you would be the scout Joy?"
            The mink started, blinking at the slender young man in the simple 
smock of a priest.  Not the robes of an acolyte she now realized, but a robe of 
one ordained.  That it had been fashioned to fit his diminutive frame had caused 
her to overlook it at first, and the fact she had not expected a child to 
represent the entire power of the Ecclasia at Metamor.  She was not exactly sure 
what she had expected, for she could not imagine the mother church to recognize 
an animal or female priest.  "Yes father." She nodded at length, recovering her 
composure.  "I am sorry, I have been away for quite some time on patrol in the 
north."
            "That is very well, my child." The boy smiled, folding the stained 
white linen of his polishing cloth and setting it upon the altar next to a 
brightly polished silver candelabrum.  "I am pleased that you might grace our 
new home here." He waved one arm toward the massive chapel, "It is magnificent, 
is it not?"
            "It is most awe inspiring father, but I did not come here to gawk." 
She chuckled, covering up a brief sigh.  "Though I daresay admit that I did."
            "Gawk?" Father Hough joked, smiling brightly, his hands folded 
before his chest.
            Llyn returned her wandering gaze to the slender child before her and 
nodded, "Gawk, yes.  I…" she paused, searching for the words that refused to 
come easily to her lips, "I am not actually sure why I came here today, but I 
guess it is for the better.  I need to speak with you father.”  She took another 
brief look around at the architectural wonders of the chapel before returning 
her gaze to the young man watching her attentively.  “In private?"
            The child nodded, turning to take up the polishing cloth with one 
sure motion of his small hand, "It would be an honour, Joy.  Shall we retire to 
my office?" he asked as he motioned toward a tall, spartanly decorated door 
behind the altar.  She nodded as he turned and walked down the seven steps 
behind the raised dais upon which the altar and crucifix was elevated to be seen 
by all those who attended the church services.
            Beyond that door was more of a changing room than a true office, one 
other door leading from it into the child priest's rooms proper.  An ornate desk 
of dark hardwood was nestled into one corner of the room, obviously sized for 
one much larger than the priest as he had become.  To compensate the chair 
behind the desk was raised, with a single riser to the side.  Hough brushed the 
worn cloth across the corner of the desk as he circled it and stepped up into 
his chair, losing himself in the massive, time worn frame.
            "Kyia was so kind to provide me with rooms." He giggled as he placed 
his small hands upon the age-darkened wood, stroking it slowly, "But 
unfortunately my old furnishings from Allcaran were never intended to be used by 
a child."  He left the polishing cloth resting on the arm of his chair, leaning 
back and resting his small hands on the burled endcaps of the ancient seat.  
"So, my daughter, what do you wish to discuss with me at such a pleasantly early 
hour?"
            Joy glanced down at her hands, which worried themselves in her lap, 
the dark fur of her fingers ruffled out of shape by the nervous jitteriness of 
her fingers.  "I wish to absolve the sins I have committed in the past couple of 
months, Father." She found the honorific coming easily to her voice, despite the 
fact it was addressed to one who appeared half her age.



      

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